I've been really stressed lately. Maybe because, you-know-why.
Throwing tantrum like a small kid. i am 20 even too small physically.
I see a really small thing as a REALLY big thing. So-me.
Am not yet matured, not yet grown up big enough to handle things so-not-carelessly.
and the most important thing, the element of patience is not even a bit in my inner self. What should i do?
I get angry very easily over small things. Even my parents noticed that. I really failed at controlling my own emotion.I get influenced very easily. Demanding this and that without thinking others -_-
and the worst part, i tend to regret after throwing such tantrum to particular person.
I should try to behave now, try to change myself, try to be someone better, try to be a WOMAN, not a girl anymore.
The childish part really submerged deep inside myself, till i cant tear the character apart.
I slightly doubtful to my own self, about whether i can be a good wife or not.
and slightly sad for, you-know not always understand the other-half-to-be better.
I see this as a new challenge, to actually pour the ingredients of patience-ness in this stubborn heart of mine. A really big challenge you-know.
The preparation is Alhamdulillah, so far so good.
My mum plays a really big role handling the ceremony, as i am stranded here, at Gombak.
How i wish i could be less-banyak-songeh, and more helpful -_-
Nothing is perfect, so why do i eager to find perfect-ness when i can create it with my own eyes.
When you see something perfect, then it will be = Hafiz
May Allah ease.
Closed everything as long as you STILL can close it, dont wait until the time, where someone else closed it for you. Its our aurah :)
Semua lelaki kacak, tidak kacak luar, kacak dalam, tapi yang paling kacak, kacak imannya :)