I've been really stressed lately. Maybe because, you-know-why.
Throwing tantrum like a small kid. i am 20 even too small physically.
I see a really small thing as a REALLY big thing. So-me.
Am not yet matured, not yet grown up big enough to handle things so-not-carelessly.
and the most important thing, the element of patience is not even a bit in my inner self. What should i do?
I get angry very easily over small things. Even my parents noticed that. I really failed at controlling my own emotion.I get influenced very easily. Demanding this and that without thinking others -_-
and the worst part, i tend to regret after throwing such tantrum to particular person.
I should try to behave now, try to change myself, try to be someone better, try to be a WOMAN, not a girl anymore.
The childish part really submerged deep inside myself, till i cant tear the character apart.
I slightly doubtful to my own self, about whether i can be a good wife or not.
and slightly sad for, you-know not always understand the other-half-to-be better.
I see this as a new challenge, to actually pour the ingredients of patience-ness in this stubborn heart of mine. A really big challenge you-know.
The preparation is Alhamdulillah, so far so good.
My mum plays a really big role handling the ceremony, as i am stranded here, at Gombak.
How i wish i could be less-banyak-songeh, and more helpful -_-
Nothing is perfect, so why do i eager to find perfect-ness when i can create it with my own eyes.
When you see something perfect, then it will be = Hafiz
May Allah ease.
For Hawa,
Closed everything as long as you STILL can close it, dont wait until the time, where someone else closed it for you. Its our aurah :)
InsyaAllah. Assalamualaikum
Semua lelaki kacak, tidak kacak luar, kacak dalam, tapi yang paling kacak, kacak imannya :)
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