Today i woke up seriously early at 5:30am. I couldnt get a tight sleep last night. I dont know why. So i end up keep waking from sleep -_-. It makes my head feel a bit dizzy now.
so, after subuh prayer. here i am, writing this post.
I keep thinking about 'forgiving'
Sometimes, it need a lot of effort to forgive someone isnt it?
Seriously, have you ever feel mad at someone, until to some extent, you actually feel like you hate that person whole heartedly. It something rare in myself. How could you turn someone that you feel seriously dear to your heart to some stranger that you totally hate until you-cant-even-think-bout-the person because your heart feel a maximum degree of hateness.
But we as a human, will not hate someone for no reason. Isnt it?
*orang gila je macam tu. hihi.
Am not that kind of person who carelessly pick someone to be hated. Yeah you, i hate you for no reason. I just saw you and i feel like, yeah, i should hate you because you annoyed me. *you annoyed me, nahhh! thats a reason! so, I have a seriously firm reason to hate this person.
I hate this person with todooooss corazon. (baca : sepenuh hati)
But we are Muslim, our Prophet s.a.w who considered maksum forgives his ummah, and why couldnt we?
Who am i to hate a person, am still a slave of Allah who full-with-sin,so why couldnt i try to forgive and forget, yeah might be that person do something that, considerably cant be excused.
Human make mistakes, human break promises, human do wrong, and above all human are not perfect. Allah is.
For a heart that is full with hatred.
May you'll finally find a way to wash away the hatred. Try to forgive, and try to forget. Jangan bebankan hati, jangan beratkan orang yang dibenci.Buang segala benci, InsyaAllah, ketenangan menanti.
Moga kebencian dan dendam yang terpendam cuma sementara.
Moga aku temui maaf yang hilang ;')
"..dan hendaklah mereka memaafkan dan berlapang dada. Apakah kamu tidak suka Allah mengampunimu? Dan Allah Maha Pengampun dan Maha Penyayang."
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