Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Tragic

Salam hye peeps. Just done with chemistry today. Alhamdulillah. done my best :) One paper left!

Yesterday, which paper fizik.

Seriously, it was worst. aku xtahu nak cakap mcm mn. tpi paper fizik gua mmg lingkup habes :( -.-'

Tak cukup masa, xsempat buat, blank, formula tersekat kat neuron tah mn sampai semua bercampur baur.


Keluar hall, muka sumpah xleh nak senyum dah. dalam hati, jiwa, minda, wa nak melalak !



Pergi cafe, tersempak dgn high school crush, dye tegur.
H.C : fizik okay?
aku : susah gila gila.
H.C : esok chem venue mn?
aku : amf, d*?
H.C : smawp

Dah bayar bagai, duduk meja, seblum dye blah smpat dye senyum ckp bye.

Mamat ni sokmo xkena timing. Seriously, when i'm not in the mood, dont ask anything, dont act nice, dont this and dont that. Aku rasa semak.

Sampai bilik, capai hp, pergi tempat ampaian. Call mak.

Hujan, ribut, taufan bagai aku kat tempat ampaian tuh. Tsunami pun blh skali lah. Mum was seriously worry. am not that kind of person who would cry infront of her. the last time i cried was when my brother died. Its been a really long time since my last shed of tears. Almost 1 month i didnt even let my tears fall down T_T

Tiba-tiba pasal encik pijik, gua menangis bagai putus cinta.

Then call cik yana. but she wasnt answering.

Luckily she called me back, hujan turun dgn lebatnya sekali lagi T_T wuuuuu~~ thank sayang, for lending me your shoulders :) saya xmacho dah depan mata awak :( awk dengar dah suara sengau saya!

After solat asar.

Baring, hujan lebat sorang2 bawah selimut, cik yana dan cik istadartiah, sending msg. telling me to focus for todays paper.

Then abah come to the rescue.

Saying its okay to fall down for one time, its okay to feel worst for this one time. There must be something wrong here and there, that i need to think about it back. Lagi lah hujan taufan katrina banjir tsunami. It was abah. Its abah. Haish, orang itu jiwa, tulang belakang, kekuatan.

For someone like me, who never walk out of my comfort zone, its seriously hard to face this. I cried really hard, till i fell asleep in my tears.


Get up when it was mghrib. Feeling better after that and struggling for chemistry till 2am.

Terima kasih buat sahabat yang sentiasa disisi.
Terima kasih buat roommate, yang cuba memahami.
Terima kasih buat emak dan abah, tanpa dipinta melakukan solat sunat hajat, untuk satu-satunya anak bongsu yang hilang pertimbangan.


Now, totally redha for pijik's result, maybe it isnt going to be an A. maybe B. prepare myself for any possibility. R.E.D.H.A


Its feel really awkward when someone try to approach me. maybe this isnt what i'm looking for right now. I'm glad that i am seriously okay now. Its seriously isnt easy to fix back a broken heart.
but am not ready for any relationship, and not looking for any mushy relationship right now, except marriage? :P

4 comments:

Nini Hartini said...

alololo..ciannya... jadikan kegagalan sbg kekuatan utk lebih berusaha.. jgn putus asa okey?.. dan akk harap, apa yg terjadi xde dipengaruhi dgn apa yg terjadi pd yatt lately ni.

safina razak said...

oww.jgn sedih2! xpee, exam final struggle for the best k. just pray for the best and yet, believe Allah will always be with you. doa banyak2, mana tau yang tak A atau B tu still boleh buat awk happy =)

Rooftopers said...

dont be sad dear.. He counts your effort insyaallah =) btw pray.. it change, remember..

Herlisyatt said...

kak tini : eheh. xde kene mengena pun dgn bnda tuh. yatt dah okay dah, Alhamdulillah. serious xde sedih ape dah. just time exam tu, blank :( huwaa.. sedih jee.

fina : eheh. thanks syg. insyaAllah. redha habis dah nie. wee~

mirah : thanks laaa awak niee. highihih always pray. always asking Him for the best. InsyaAllah