around 1 am.

Buku tebal chem dah habis ditatap, dari 9 pm sampai 12 am.
reaction alcohol, phenol dah habis langsai dalam ingatan.
Al-quran dicapai. tujuan hanya satu. memorization of surah al-furqan. verse 61-77.
Alhamdulillah. manage to remember till verse 72. Al-quran ditutup.
' Contengan jalanan ' hlovate dicapai, earphone disumbat dalam telinga, page by page.
ahh! bosan.

hp dikalih *1 new message

then laptop dibimbit.

now. here i am. with one unbeneficial entry. -.-'
* memang bukan aku on9 selang 2 hari. selalunya sampai lupa nak on9.

Even i die i cant let you go - 2AM bermain dari corong earphone.




sometimes i do feel lost.


is it teenager often feel like this?



its suffocating.
its nerve breaking.

ah! sesak. semak. sebal. semua ade.

mind-heart-soul disorder.
combination of three, givin you a very best outcome. until u cant actually control it.
dang~



bukan sebab siapa2. bukan sebab hal apa2.


cuma satu perasaan dalam hati yang buat semua rasa macam menyesakkan.

sampai semua benda berlegar2 dalam minda.
study.future.best friends.parents.siblings.dan .soulmate.

study. getting tougher day by day. mid is around the corner. i hate physic when it comes to series and parallel circuit. sesak -.-'
future. kelam lagi. i cant see were do i head to. sesak -.-'
best friends. so near, yet so far. sesak -.-'
parents. do they doing very well? is abah find? is emak seriously okay. dari dulu sampai sekarang. kalau ade masalah xpernah nak cerita kat aku. risau :(
siblings. miss them. a.lot. risau -.-'
soulmate. kalau blh xnak pk. tp kenapa. nak masuk puluhan tahun ni, pasal soulmate macam nightmare. menghantui setiap masa? serious aku sesak. xnak pk pun dye mcm terfikir gak. sesak bhai!



syaitan, mmg betul kau xde kerja lain. menghasut manusia, buat manusia rasa lost.

dan perasaan marah yang menyesakkan. xkan hilang selagi tak dilepaskan. datangnya dari kau juga syaitan kan?



see, akal boleh berfikir. cuma satu sekarang.

take a step to control this. dont overwhelmed by it fatinhusna.


huuuuu~

things get complicated when you let it be complicated.

dont think how complicated it is. think how simple it is.


as easy as that. titik penyelesaian ditemui. helaan nafas yang panjang. done.








cubaan melelapkan mata kali kedua.

:)

Be tough, as you always do. relieved.