Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Err.

Semalam baru sedar credit hour utk sem nie gila banyak.
Haish...
InsyaAllah maybe 17 kot.
Sheish aku mcm erk. terkejut.
terus rs nak pengsan. Hailaaaaa.
Susah kot, smpi tension2 mlm td sebb pk gila berat subjek yg aku bawak.

Chemistry - 5 c.h
Biology - 5 c.h
Fardu Ain - 1 c.h
Arabic - 3 c.h
Understanding Islam - 3 c.h

Berat kot aku rs, dulu English xde pulak credit hour.
Core subjek 2 je kot, n masing2 5 credit hour.
* tu dah ckup berat lah -.-
nak nangis rasa. hailaa.
tp, mcm ape je sbb bnda2 lain yg aku bawak xberkaitan dgn medik pun kan?

- Entah, but rsnye, kena think positive nie,
belajar semua2 berkaitan dgn Islam, insyaAllah.
ya Husna, betulkan niat, belajar krn Allah s.w.t
* Hidayah itu milik Allah *
InsyaAllah, will show me the ryte path, kalau berusaha bersungguh2, pasti dengan izin-Nya sglnya dipermudahkan.

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Last nite someone ask me,
' na, knp xtry cari yg baru? '
erk.. igt nie mcm pilih ikan kat pasar ke?
Its not because the past,
but..

I am not brave enough to have another relationship.
Love is like gambling.
but, things that we gambled r our feelings.
Enough for once.
Things make me barely able to breathe.
Hardly to move on.
I dont trust in giving someone our whole heart.

Lagipun,
* its a long way to go.

InsyaAllah, kalau ade jodoh kelak, pasti akn muncul jugak orgnya bukan.
If i am ready enough, and there's someone for me,
jln terbaik ialah Istikharah,
Kalau petunjuk Allah kt dialah orgnya,
then lets move on.
to a serious relationship.
n if he's sincere enough.
i do believe he wont hesitate to have a ' relationship '
InsyaAllah, yang menghalalkan sglnya.

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For now, its a long way to go,
Seeing how high my parents hope on me.
its enough to tell me to struggle to be what they want.
to make their dreams come true.
to pay everything with a 'success'.

Ma,abah, i do will make u proud.
so, hold on, n bear with me.
i am trying very hard here.
iloveyou.

its my future, if i dont work on it, who else?
dan kejayaan itu tidak datang bergolek bukan?

ya Husna,
jika awk hebat, tidak semestinya selamanya awk menjadi seorg yg hebat.
berpijaklah di bumi yg nyata.
dan jika awk selalu berada di atas, tidak mustahil awk akn jatuh satu hari nnti.
do fight.
leave unimportant things behind.
forget the pain that u keep inside.
let it wash away.


yet, i am still HEARTLESS

** wiping tears.off

3 comments:

Adika said...

not heartless dear...
just not ready....

:)...

you see your path now...
just need to go through the obstacles.....

i know you can...everyone does...

gudluck...

:D

♫ ♥ farah ada ♫ ♥ said...

long way to go.

FatinHusnaKamaruddin said...

terima kasih sahabt :)